I am sorry

You are away from me 
still close to me more than anyone else 
Today I fought with you
I've hurt you I know
But I've hurt myself more
I spoke more than I should have
I am sorry
I know I always say the same thing
And I repeat it again and again
I'm stupid and I'm kiddish
I'm extremely sorry sweetheart
I love you a lot
But sometimes I lose my senses
I lose the ability to think
You know I'm too stubborn
And I don't accept my mistake
But today I'm brave enough to say
It was my mistake
And if I've been able to speak out this
It's been just because of you
I know sorry can't fill the space of anger
But I can't bear this silence
I'm accustomed to listening to your voice
Every hour,every minute,every second
But it's been two hours
And my phone hasn't rung yet
I am waiting but this moment isn't passing by
I am too weak to ask for punishment
But if by this act I get you back
I'm ready to do this even
But please don't go away from me
I'm sorry my eddy teddy...
Love u loads... 
                                                                                                    -Harshita Srivastava

May be.....

An expression of my thoughts written few hours ago..

Here I am standing on the road,
Not knowing where to go
I see the vehicles pass by
But none stops for me
Everyone here has a destination to reach
But why don't I have one
I can see my world shattering
But I can't do anything about it
I am so helpless
But I have the urge to fight it all
Should I start from somewhere
And reach anywhere
May be in the middle of it
I find something to bring
A meaning to my life
May be I find the people I've lost
May be I find happiness
May be I should start right now
May be I should have never stopped....
                                                                                            -Harshita Srivastava

It's Breakup Day today...

Love..the most beautiful and the purest of all emotions in this world. Love can bring the happiest moments of your life though it can also give you the most painful wounds if you don't get love in any form.Let's not talk about the painful love today.It's breakup day today but let us keep love as the happy part of our lives.Every thing has a positive aspect as well as negative aspect and so does love. Those people who have the love of their life may be knowing this very well that love is wonderful and it can't be expressed in words.

  The love week has just gone by and we have seen so many youngsters getting committed during this time promising to be by each other's side forever and many more sappy stuff.Initially all goes well but later on we find many of them breaking up.What people don't understand is that if there is happiness today then sadness will surely come by.This is not a fairytale,it's life and life is full of ups and downs.Every relation has some misunderstandings,some conflicts and fights but that doesn't mean that breakup is the only solution.Don't we fight with our friends and family members but do we ever stop talking to them?? Don't we apologize to our friends?? Then what stops us from apologizing to our partner,what stops us from clearing misunderstandings between each other?? We just fight and argue.Can't we just leave it all?Can't we just ignore a mistake made by our love?Isn't he/she a human??

  "To err is human,to forgive is divine"

Don't we all know this?? We all have learnt this saying but have we ever tried to understand it.Forgiveness is a virtue which is equivalent to the goodness of the Almighty.Making mistakes is a part of life and if you don't make mistakes you'll never be able to master the art of living.Same is the case with forgiveness.If your loved one makes a mistake it is your duty to forgive him/her,not finish off the relation.

 If all of us realize the true value of relationships then won't this world become a better place to live in??

There would be lesser number of wars,murders,suicides and other crimes.Many a cases of murders are due to betrayal in love.We have seen so many cases of acid attacks.Reason:jilted lovers.What I don't understand is if you actually love a person then how can you ever think of harming her.So many youngsters commit suicide these days because of breakups and problems in their love life but why don't they think that if today there is sorrow and hardships in their life then tomorrow they are definitely going to have a lovely and shady life.

  "Ghum ka ye pal guzar jayega fir koi humsafar ayega"

  I guess majority of us have heard the above lines of the song "Bikhri bikhri" from the movie "What's your Rashee?" but have we ever tried to analyse the meaning of the words.This song has a beautiful lyrics.I would say listen to this song once again and think about the phase through which your life is going.If there is an obstacle in your life it is God's way to make you strong and if there is happiness then be thankful that you are fortunate enough to have a beautiful life filled with joys and don't be afraid of sorrows and obstacles because life is full of experiences whether good or bad..

That's Life sweetheart...Live it,face it!!!!