Monday, July 30, 2012

The Girl I Last Loved by Smita Kaushik..Releasing this August

Title: 'The Girl I Last Loved'
Author: Smita Kaushik
ISBN: 9789380914244
Genre: Fiction/Romance
Publisher: General Press
Price:125 INR(Available at 88 INR on Flipkart)


And we finally have another treat by Smita Kaushik. Her debut book,'Let's Get Committed' has been doing well in the market since the time it got released. Let's take a peep into her latest book that'll be releasing this August. Pre-orders have already begun at Flipkart. 

About the book:Love is all about flowers, gifts, movie nights, first kiss and then many more. Or is it? Then what about one sided love...
Being friends in spite of knowing your true feelings...
The incapability to read eyes...
Don't frustration, pain and loneliness lie on the other side of love?
Meet Akash, an over achiever, who aims to conquer it all but is unable to love. 
Kasam, a girl beyond his reach.
Though destiny keeps bringing them together, their world seldom collides.
When he was a naïve geek, she was the Style Diva.
And now when he is a corporate junkie, where faces are masked. She is a professional motivator, who sees even beyond the faces.
Two people.
Single love story revisited three times.
Four proposals.
A ten year journey of finding and losing love.
Countless moments of serendipity.
Yet not a single moment of confession.
He lived all his life fighting love...
Will he ever fight for love?

And especially for the readers, we bring to you the FIRST CHAPTER of the book:

Darkness all around. Vision getting blurred. It takes some time for eyes to get adjusted to sudden darkness or brightness. Just like in life we are always taken aback by sudden pleasure or pain. This same feeling of breathlessness, why does it always surrounds me. I am gasping for air and not getting much success. Someone pushing me from behind, in turn I am pushing the one in front of me. You gotta impel others to get what you want, you can’t blame others as everyone including you is doing the same I can feel the adrenalin rush. Everyone gotta run as they have a place to reach a place they call home. A home where some one is waiting for them, who will be worried if they are late. But me, I am just getting dragged along the crowd I have no place to reach, no place to call a home, no family to wait for me. Look at the irony of the situation life is making me smirk at my very own misery.
               It’s really funny even if you are making no effort to move on, you will as this time never stops. You feel nothing is going to change much but it does, slowly and gradually that you never notice.
People who are important will cease to matter six years from now if they walk out of life at this point. You won’t forget them but you won’t even recall them now and then. Be it the person you were once ‘deeply and madly in love’ with. You may still be in love with that person but other things will get in your head and your lovers memories will be enclosed in a door you would rarely visit.
         The time progressed a minute or few and I was out of that overfilled passage. Huh! It’s Friday so I am traveling by locals. This feels great to be around so many people whom you don’t know at all but you can somewhere relate to their lives. A great place to identify yourself with several emotions which either you can’t feel or no longer have the ability to.
I used to come here as a kid. Dad used to bring me here for having a walk and to get me my favorite cutlet which Bansi bhaiya used to make around the corner.
      Everything has changed since then but nothing seems different. Except few more lights, few extra waiting seats, increased shops, more beetle strains at nooks and corners. Increased security in an attempt to prevent another 26/11. Finally jostling young crowd running between different tuitions and home, under the pressure of cracking various competitions- bearing very few seats.
    I progressed a bit further and as I just missed the last local I was lucky enough to get a place to make myself comfortable. It’s a way of regarding the situation. Here it’s my weekly luxury to travel by locals which I am still enjoying even after missing my last train but for those whose traveling by locals is a compulsion missing train can be so much annoying, something adding to their misery.
     I stretched my arms and glanced around. Three young guys in their later teens were standing close in a circle. All of them were dressed in their funky vibrant T-shirts and on-purpose tattered jeans, vibrant slippers; big dial watches, spiked hair. I reflected back at myself. I am suited up, black and grey, rado watch, well set black shinning hair. Is there such a thing like young at heart? But I was more than relieved that I no longer carry a student bag .One of the three boys lighted a cigarettes and took a very comfortable puff. After two to three puffs he passed it on to his friend. During its lifetime the stick kept on rotating among three of them. I couldn’t help but smile remembering those good old days. Now I smoke sixteen a day and its not even near  to the fun we use to have puffing from a single stick. I have no idea why smoking or drinking bring guys closer. Although hard to grasp but it’s a truth. Most of the colleagues with whom I am acquainted with, I met them at the smoking zone itself. Besides its something that serves my loneliness well. Since past few months I am quite content with my career growth. So I was able to take this immense leap in down slicing my intake from more than thirty-eight to sixteen as a New Year resolution.  
What started as an infantile attempt to feel like an adult, is my most eminent companion now. I smoke to reward myself. I snapped a deal, I smoke. I completed a report, I smoke.
I survived yet another day of this purposeless life, I smoke; but most important of all it feels like being with a friend. When it glows in the dark, it assures am not alone. Same as being in a station feels to me.
All these years I have witnessed various flavors of life here.
A kid taking blessings from his parents before leaving home for the very first time. An innocent newly wed bride with all her expectations and fear entering her new found world. Children running after vendors; parents running behind them. Lovers hugging each other while parting away. Lovers passing smile when they spot each other amidst the entire crowd. Some promising new-bees leaving for work hanging their laptop bags in one hand and news paper in other which probably they will read before reaching work. Some tired fellows unwilling to begin yet another day. Few satisfied faces reflecting they have embraced life in its every form. People coming. People going. Several unexpected convergence. Several unwanted separation.
So many people, so many eyes holding so many dreams, hope, anger, pain, desire. Those wondering awaiting eyes.
     Those eyes…those eyes confirms that you are not the only one with unfulfilled desires, you are not the only one who have assimilated in this unusual mixture of emotions.
I have always been attracted to trains especially the leaving ones. I can’t reason it out but it gives a sensation of well being. Watching them leave reminds me one day I can refuse to be what I am. One day I can run away to a very distant place where nobody knows me.
There is always a start somewhere else if not here.
“Oh! I am sorry” a stranger who just spilled half her bag over me uttered.
My thoughts or rather my repeated thoughts were interrupted.
I lifted my head gave her an odd look and directed my sight elsewhere.
She bent down and some groceries out of her carry bag spilled again.
Virtue of feminism.
Now I was crossing the line, uncivil onto rude.
I bent down gave her a weary smile and started looking for and gathering her stuffs. As they were expected to, nobody halted to join us. Even the person sitting just next to me didn’t bulge a little, absorbed in texting.
I picked few tomatoes, some oranges, actually lots of them probably she attended some ‘buy 1 kg get 1 kg free’ offer and placed it her grocery bag . I often wonder these market analysts know women better than anyone else. ‘Sale’ gathers women together, makes them run, snatch and fight; they erroneously feels like a winner if they emerge with out with bunch of shopping bags.
This lady standing in front of me, only she would be knowing what she is going to cook with three bags of tomatoes and oranges.
‘Thank you!’ she hurriedly responded to my gesture. Just then one orange slipped from her bag and rolled along the platform.
I took a brief look at her. She was struggling with two plastic bags in one hand and one in another while adjusting her hand bag to shoulder …gripping her dupatta…managing her hair.
She progressed towards that orange I signaled her that I will get it.
I took long firm steps in its direction. I crouched to lift it up. At that moment only some train arrived and the platform was overflowing with people. I fastened to get up but was ceased. I stopped. Moved my eyes aimlessly, without any direction but I definitely was in search of something. Something which I haven’t seen but it wasn’t unknown. All I can see was shoes, speeding feet following random tracks. It gets hard to scan especially when you don’t know what you are looking for. Subsequently familiar steps of someone walking struck me. There it is among all those unknown jumbled pegs. A flash of lightening and I retreated. I tried to focus. It was the mirrors. Small pieces of colored glass studded in her slip-ons tangled in beautiful threads. That soothing skin texture. That shining pink enamel. Though what captured me was the sliver stoned toe-ring. A funky pink plastic toe-ring shaped as a Cinderella shoe flashed back in front of my eyes. It may not be true ….but every no exists along with a corresponding yes. I tried to concentrate on it, as with so many people bubbling in, I lost it maybe I lost her. I got restless I drifted my eyes sideways and again she was there. I couldn’t see her in full but I was getting more and more attracted to her. In few more attempts I saw a light blue jeans faded white at few parts. I froze. My heart started thumping. Is it ?? I was afraid to find out.
Still I followed her. In few more glimpses I saw her lemon colored kurti and purple-embroided jhola. I was nearing her. My speed continued to increase. I saw her hand, her sparkling multicolored bangles, a red color thumb-ring, a sea green ring in her little finger, when she tired to stop a man who was about to crash in her.
I quit. My feet struck at the ground still my eyes following her. Again there were several others between us. She tossed her stole up in the air onto her shoulders. Everything was new but it wasn’t different. All the action, the grace, was unlike her yet there was a striking similarity. She wore a silver metallic watch with complimenting bracelets hanging just below it on her other hand. Her long sleek nails stunned me. Her stole now rested on her shoulder. It was green with yellow patches here and there, several plain mirrors shinning… blinding people. Enchanting sound of  ghun -ghuru  hanging from her stole tried to drag me to her. I was tempted to put an end to it. To know. To confront. To feel. Still the push and the pull was equal. Her hair was flowing away from her face, long silky streaked in red, coursing up to her waist. The chase was over. She turned towards me. Few strands of hair obstructed her face. She placed them behind her ear with her long slender fingers.
A chill ran through my body. I was unable to move. I choked. My hands curled. I was ecstatic for a moment I was nervous for the next I was scared in the third. I struggled with myself. Half of her hair clutched behind her ear from which hanged a rotating jhumka. Same beautiful hairline, few strands flowing onto the face but ending before her eyes began. Her enchanting eyes, ever expressive, ever transparent, always innocent.
‘Eyes are windows to the soul’ was so true for her. Her pure white face it give you an illusion that it will turn red if anyone touches her. No straight guy can ever take his eyes off her golden nose ring. Her lips, pure pink, never needed any extra color. But her smile was something to hold out for. So lively, so perfect, captivating, bewitching, delightining, enthralling…. I never found enough words to describe it.
I reversed scared to face her. I was even more scared to let her confront me. I sided. I saw her coming. She was then parallel to me. She halted. I hid across a pillar. Then glanced back again at her. She searched her bag for something, then feeling assured on finding it she smiled, typically her. Finally she passed.
The girl passed.
The girl I last loved…
The girl who used to look at me and I used to forget everything going around me and could not stop but smile back at her.
The girl ..whose teeth used to sparkle on listening to admiration of her beauty.
The girl ..whose eyes used to twinkle on seeing chocolate pastry.
The girl ..who kept on adding words to my girl’s encyclopedia.
The girl..who used to love the sound of rain.
The girl..who used to explain everything along with hand movement.
The girl..who could spent million on clothing if she had but never on gadgets.
‘You say what’s more…’ was all what was needed to trigger her off on a never ending series of stories.
The girl who ruled my dreams but I was never there in her thoughts.
The girl who was there in my life but never really came into my life still changed every bit of it.
The girl I last loved….
….The girl ..who never loved me back.


About the author: Smita Kaushik became author by chance and is now pursuing it by choice. Her first novel Let’s Get Committed not only created waves among the young generation but also pitched some notes with others as well. Though her forte lies in romance with hint of comedy, she sometimes tries to lay hands on philosophy. An ex-DPSite, she did her graduation from KIIT University and is currently based in Hyderabad. Always a creativity inclined person, she has excelled in different art forms like contemporary, madhubani & warli and has won many national level art competitions. For fun she likes to watch rom-com and read novels.


My view: I am a die hard romantic at heart and I personally enjoyed reading Smita's first book. The first chapter is quite promising and gives us an impression that the book wouldn't let us down in any perspective. the magical weaving of words is well visible in the first chapter itself. Each and every scene described could easily be pictured in my mind. This possibly explains the art of story telling the author possess. I would really love to read this book, know Akash and Kasam and their ten year journey of finding and losing love. I guess the most challenging part for an author is writing in the first person as the opposite gender. The present project that I'm working deals with the same, thinking like a guy, the kind of emotions he goes through is really a typical task for a girl because we all know Men and women differ in their nature almost poles apart, as the saying goes men are from Mars and Women are from Venus. And this is one thing I am really forward to reading in this book. While in the first chapter, it actually doesn't feel that a girl has written it all. Oh and btw did I tell you, I love the book cover :)
My fav line from the above extract is:
"People who are important will cease to matter six years from now if they walk out of life at this point. You won’t forget them but you won’t even recall them now and then"
And of course the last line:
"The Girl I last Loved...The girl who never looked back"

~SNEAK PEEP INTO A FEW LINES PRESENT IN THE BOOK~

Being Friends with someone you love is roughly equivalent to...
This is roughly equivalent to the scenario where a guy goes to a job interview and the company says, “You have a great resume, you have all the qualifications we were looking for, but we are not going to hire you. We will however, use your resume as the basis of comparison for all other applicants. But we are going to hire somebody else who is far less qualified and is probably an alcoholic. And if it doesn’t workout we will hire somebody else still not you. In fact we will never hire you. But we will call you from time to time to complain about the person we hired.

And this one's the author's favourite:

I missed her all the time. When I opened my eyes in the morning I missed her not lying by my side. When I got up I missed not seeing her brushing her wet hair with towel. I missed her not passing me the juice during the breakfast. I missed not yelling out about my wallet or mobile and getting them for me. I missed not saving her image in my eyes before leaving for work. I missed kissing her good bye at the door. Whenever I looked at my kitchen’s window from the parking I missed her not standing there, watching me till I leave...waving to me. I missed not getting abrupt calls during meetings. I missed the anxiety to reach home early. I missed the way she would have opened the door for me. If sometimes I would have arrived early I would have made coffee for her. I missed her massaging my head if I had some work related issue. I missed trying to knit her hair. I missed sitting on this sofa together fighting for remote. I missed letting her win and then watching romantic comedies. I missed lying on the corner of this hall. Her sitting in my lap.. Me smelling her hair knowing its forever. I missed her, kneeling her head onto my chest and then going to sleep. I even miss the fight we never had. I missed the kisses. The hugs. The warmth.
I missed not making all that happen.
I missed the every possibility of her being with me.


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6 comments:

  1. I see you may have been inspired in the presentation style of the book, at the start of the post, that is :)) Lovely post nonetheless :))

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    1. In order to get max attention from readers, a good start and good end is very necessary apart from the great content and story line..and my views have been in the same context..We can only comment on the book when it'll be released but till now it has a pleasant and appealing touch to it..And it does have some heart touching lines :)

      Thanks for passing by and commenting on my blog again!

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  2. hello....,
    well I spent about 20 minutes in your blog today and was reading some of your posts....(popular posts)...I must say it shows to side of yours 1.A budding creative writer,2.a really kind hearted human(read abt yr acts of kindness), gud keep it up......but your recent posts suggest , that u r writing reviews on Indian writer and their "Sick Love story " books. Don't get me wrong I have no enmity against them.But seriously given the fact every Indian (most) r writing some cheap stories and getting them printed and pricing it as low as their quality of story...selling about 10000 copies and regarding them as best sellers ...dats sick man.
    First of all including CB and DD most Indian writers who writes books on love are dumb people ..:D :P srry but this is what I feel :D :P
    but after reading through most of yr post(not the review one's) i feel you make a better writer then those writers you have interviewed , seriously :)
    Nd please since u r a creative person, write sum awesome stories (fiction) but never on luv stories , since u wud do injustice to your creative side, be sum thing like J.K Rowling Indian version or better than her //all d bst :)
    btw if u think i have spoken a lot please ignore :)

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    1. Hello..I am happy to know you browsed through my blog and have given a proper feedback. this is something every writer needs, a good critic :)
      And coming to the point of authors, I would say half of the nation in our country is not well versed with English even after so many efforts on spreading literacy. Out of the 50%, not even 10% come into the literary world for our society requires financial stability first and pursuing of hobbies is mostly secondary. So I would say we are on the way of developing. See something is better than nothing. All of us can not be Arundhati Roy or Ruskin Bond but we can surely put in efforts. You say the new trend of Youth Authors has been crap for they haven't been able to come up to the expectation but I feel at least people like Chetan Bhagat, Durjoy Dutta, Novoneel Chakraborty, Preeti Shenoy made India read. If you've ever picked up their work, I suggest you to read Preeti Shenoy's 'Life is what you make it' and Novoneel's 'That kiss in the rain' and come back to me. They do write beautifully. Reading english works was something most Indians lacked but now there's a different rage. We are heading forward towards a better point. Let's be positive, hindi is India's mother tongue. How many have actually excelled in this language?? Not many even though we could have produced so much in Hindi and that too beautifully. We just can't underestimate them. They've brought India another milestone. And you know, coz of these writers Indians have finally begun picking up Foreign works too. Oft lately, the Indian book market is highest on opportunities plus did you know John Grisham's books are released first in India?
      I am still a beginner so I can never compare myself to all the published authors, they are way beyond me and many of them have been my inspiration to actually pick up writing professionally. If CB wouldn't have got FPS published I would have given up on my hobby long time and I would be just another engineer working for some MNC. I might have never realized that writing was my true calling.
      Another thing that you seem to have mentioned is I should write fiction but not romance as it would be an injustice 2 a creative writer. Every person has his own perception and choices and more importantly field of interest. I have more interest in expressing emotions and human relationships, out of which love forms an integral part. I might be writing something really great in drama and romance but I may be a mess at thrillers but since you've mentioned it, I'll try my best to diversify my write ups :)
      It was great having your thoughtful comment on my blog..Luking forward for more feedback from you.

      Stay blessed

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  3. I respect your view point and am pleased by the reasons you have very nicely pointed out favoring today's young authors and their work, I agree to some of it.
    But the point that I wanted to get across was that , India is country of rich culture, heritage with lot of history, barring a few , have India produced world class literary stuff till date.??..sadly nope .Reason ????
    We need good writers who know and respect the ism of literature.
    Indian are second rated in most fields , its time we show the world Indian too can produce a sidney, john, paulo....
    Have u read works of Amish tripathi, ashwin , these two writer write gud stuff , atleast that what I felt :)
    happy blogging......luking forward to your lovly post :)

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    1. Oh! yes I've read them all. I may have been a lil biased with the new bunch of authors for even I'm going 2 join them sm day but that surely doesn't mean I haven't read Amish's works, Ashwin, Paulo, John Grisham and their likes. I am more of classic literature lover so you'll find me mostly loving the works of Emily Bronte, Charles Dickens, O.Henry, Saki...I read varied topics. I've read Russian and Japanese work too and believe me they are awesome...

      Glad to have got that response...
      Keep blogging n keep commenting :)

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